Dreams do come true

No, I'm not talking about the type of dream where you meet your showbiz/boyband crush for x number of years in person, or you get married with your first love from high school. I'm talking about dreams that you have at night.

There have been many times when I've dreamt about stuff that actually happens in real life. Like, I dream about being in a certain situation in a specific place in a specific time of day. Then, weeks/months later, I have this undeniable feeling of deja vu, and I realize that the same happening appeared in my dream.

It gets creepier. I dream about death, like I dream that people will die soon. And my "batting average", if you will, is nearly spot on. I won't go there, cause I rather find it very confounding. XD If you're an X fangirl, you could say that I'm sort of the likes of Hinoto - a yumemi.

Anyway, this whole "dreamseeing" business is basically the foundation for the main purpose of this post - the long-awaited update on the audition that I went to last June 18.

Last week, I dreamt that I didn't pass. It was the kind of dream that had the same theme, thickness and certainty as with the other dreams I've had of the imminent future. If you follow my tweets, I've been lamenting on the lack of updates (I've been told that the results would be released by month-end). But when the dream came, I knew that I had to accept the inevitable.

Then tonight, I finally got an email from the organizers of the audition. I won't deny that I had a tiny sliver of hope left that I snagged a role. So, with bated breath, I opened the email. Text follows below:


Hi [JC],

Thank you for auditioning in [name of musicale].

After carefully reviewing the videos and much deliberation, please accept our sincerest regrets. While you exhibited an impressive display of talent, we could not find a suitable role that matches your profile.

We hope that this will not discourage you from participating in future (...) activities in the coming months. (...) Your presence in these undertakings will be most welcome.

Do keep singing for the Lord! God bless you.

Your truly,

[The] Team



Yup. Dreams do come true. /le sigh

At this point, I've already accepted it. I think I've done enough grieving about it last week, even if I had no official result to bank on. (obvious naman sa tweets) When that dream happened I knew it would come to pass.

But as far as regrets go, I have none. I gave it everything I got in that audition (in spite of the roughness in my voice at that time), and I knew also that they will choose the right person for each role. C'est la vie, I guess.

It's about time that I moved on to the next adventure. Definitely not the end of the road for me.  =D

All this talk about dreamseeing makes me want to watch X again. Must. Find. DVDs.